untitled - NaPoWriMo #14

hi, it's me - 
you probably don't know 
that I live in the lanes that you'll never cross -
in life, or in your mind.

i make my homes 
in all the corners that you couldn't bear
to care about, 
except for appearances. 

you don't have to apologize,
not that you ever will,
for forgetting that i breathe in and out 
counting the seconds and minutes 
since you thought of me -
and so my breathing would seem relaxed,
because i'm in no hurry,
and clearly,
neither are you. 

hi, it's me - 
i don't expect you to dramatically turn around
one fine day
and realize that i was always right here,
a part of me just hopes
that you'd realize 
if i was ever missing 
(but i know that's asking too much)

hi it's me - 
you hurt me,
but that's okay - 
i don't expect you to realize it,
because i've made that mistake 
for far too long -
the one where i hope you'll come around.
(never works)

hi it's me - 
and i know you won't answer,
but i'll say hi anyway,
and i'll hope anyway.